Hello, there!

Well, hello!

It is nice to see you back here, and to be honest, it is good to be in this space. I am currently fulfilling a bachelorette weekend, as the mister is out of town. Dinner consists of wine and whatever is in the fridge (whole foods brussels sprouts make the list here) and today was also tax-free shopping day!

...basically, the rest of the nation (looking at you, Oregon) has to have one day of tax free where other states get it all the time! I do not miss Oregon shopping and today I was reminded of home! I bought five pairs of shoes today for a collective $30, was able to get the rest of the gear I needed for our upcoming trip, and also treated myself to a jacket I've been lusting after for the past few months! All in all, it was a good trip.

So, the topic at hand today is probably a burning question in your mind. Here's the deal. It has been so long since I've put anything on paper I am just going to sum up the year as best as I can. After I do that, we will see where we are at.

I quit writing regularly after I quit Whole30. Life got in the way, I was busy, I didn't have anything of substance to write...the list of excuses goes on and on. I finally realized that I just have to bite the bullet and  move on. Count the past as past and keep going, as slow as it may be. Here I am, months later, writing about my life.

Let's start with January.
      In January, nothing of note happened that I remember. We had just returned from a trip to Vegas, demolition was starting on our house, and we were living in an apartment. The NBA season was rough, and we were down a million players at this point. Little did we know what a push it would be to get to the end. I was busy writing IEPs and the mister was busy slangin those contracts for the boys in blue we have grown to love. I regrew four orchids, attempted to love my job (failed), and started suffering from terrible migraines. January was a rough month! We were frustrated about our living situation (three months into paying a mortgage and rent), the basketball season, and our lack of THINGS that we had in our apartment. Who packs all the DVDs for storage and moves the DVD player into the apartment? We do.



February...
      In February, we celebrated a LOT of love! We had Valentine's Day (which was during the trade deadline, so M worked and I celebrated), and a week later we celebrated our anniversary. I got him these neat cufflinks of the coordinates of our first date: the Ambassador Hotel in Wichita, Kansas! I got flowers and gorgeous earrings and we had a beautiful dinner. We were still watching our team struggle through the regular season and our contractors renovate our house. Fortunately, I found some really great friends in my yoga community and was happy to drive the three minutes from our apartment to get my hour of balance on. That's the one thing I miss about our little apartment! I also interviewed with an organization I now work for here in OKC. I was greeted into the interview with a sense of hope and could not wait to get a call back!

March! 
       March brought a lot of change. Our house was looking pretty close to move-in ready, I joined the Junior League, and we were startled awake every morning by the construction across the street from our apartment. One day, it was 5:45am. I was so irate I called the guy in Texas to tell him to do something about the project he was managing. I was successful! I think M traveled a bit in March (I don't remember) and I was looking forward to the school year ending! We also ended the month close to a playoff bid - with the whole city sitting on the edge of their seats, it seemed. I got into grad school for social work, and it felt like the world was infinite.

April....

      April brought strep throat plus two ear infections, a week and a half in a hotel, moving into a new house that was unfinished, and a test to our relationship. I started the tattoo removal process, realized it hurt like childbirth, and we found that the Thunder did not make the playoffs. It was a quiet month in the grand scheme of things. Living amid a renovation taught us patience, communication and that we totally have different views on how to navigate the stress that comes with living in a construction site. We were sharing our house with our contractors until 11 some nights, and it was hard work. We were so grateful for the late nights, and at least now it is easier to look back fondly on the renovation. I received a call from the place I interviewed with in February, and was offered a job to teach pre-kindergarten to kids with cognitive and developmental delays. I immediately said yes! I also paid off my car over a year early! Wahoo!


May. May may may may mayyyyyy. School got out! Best month ever! But really, I enjoyed the fact that I never had to return to public school, and was looking forward to summer school before I transitioned to my new job. It was a relatively quiet month for us - with no playoffs, we watched the games at home, and hung out together for most of the nights, unpacking and figuring out how to navigate the dust that was all over the place while construction still happened. M's sister came to visit, and I got accosted by kids from my hometown - all in jest. I also read 100 Years of Solitude. Great read! I was also lucky enough to celebrate my year of health - a lot of you have been on this journey with me since the early days and I went a whole year without a relapse, which felt really great, and I have Whole30 to thank for starting me on the path to success.


June! My birthday month! In June, I obviously celebrated my birth (M made me dinner), practiced outdoor and indoor yoga, swam a ton in our pool, visited a brand new baby in the hospital, lived without internet, and started summer school. I also got to celebrate the birth of my sister! I loved June (always do), but this year was amazing because I wasn't moving for once, wasn't waiting to see what I was going to do about work, and I was ready to move on with my life! I love that feeling and it really was a great month. I met some new people and started to come into my own a year after being in the city. Knowing that we are going to be here for a minute or two longer is really helpful to my goals, and where I want to be, along with our long term plan for life. The draft happened, and I meticulously chose my players for the Thunder. Although none of mine got chosen (looking at you, Rakeem Christmas), I was a lot better at choosing potential players this year than I was the year before!

July...
In July I brought home a puppy, ended my contract with OKCPS, started my new job, booked a vacation (for next week!) and went to a blackberry festival in redneckville oklahoma. I got another laser removal and my feet blistered like crazy. July brought hope and peace into my life and a sense of purpose. Well, until I got strep throat for the second time in 3 months....







And now, it's August. It all happened so fast! We are heading to Colorado Springs in 8 days for a much needed vacation, I got one more laser removal under my belt (and my feet look like they went through a wood chipper), I still love my job and I've been reading and yoga-ing and working out like crazy. Finding a work balance has been the name of the game this month, and psh, 8 days in, I've mastered the art of juggling a 9-6 job, working out and finding time for ME.

Namaste, Friends! 

5 Reasons Why I Quit Whole30

Readers,

It has taken me a lot of pride-swallowing courage to write this post, but I think it needs to be done. Those who know me well will agree that when I go silent, something generally tends to be wrong. I don't voice things and I let them die a slow, sometimes painful death. Today, I'm owning up to the fact that I quit Whole30...and I'm not sorry.

I have successfully finished a collective 130 days of Whole30. Some days were easier than others, some days I really felt awesome. Some days, I wanted to off myself and everyone around me. Sound familiar?


So why did I quit? See below.

Reason #1: Although it is effective, it was not sustainable. 
This has nothing to do with the holiday season and has everything to do with living life. I wanted, and insisted that I resume my life while I committed to Whole30. Unfortunately, as everyone knows, that can take a hit on your social life. My social life was non-existent. I was also really sick of chicken. For me, this isn't a sustainable way to live.

Reason #2: I did it for all the wrong reasons. 
We embarked on Whole30 round 2.5 for a variety of reasons, but one in particular: we didn't feel like we ate well the previous week. Instead of not feeling guilt and accepting that we hit a setback, we went extreme and decided to Whole30 our lives away. This was not to reset our systems, this was something that we did to, essentially, punish ourselves. It wasn't a good way to start and since we weren't in the right mindset, we grew tired of the rules and boundaries - it wasn't effective.

Reason #3: I felt different. 
This time around, I committed to working out four times a week. Often, especially in power yoga, I felt dizzy, not focused and lightheaded. Due to the lack of nutrients, I think, or the amount I was eating. I did change my diet a bit - added more fats and more starchy carbs, drank a ton of water but nothing helped. It wasn't until I relaxed my diet that I felt strong and capable again instead of waif like. I realize that the program states the benefit of using fat as fuel, and it takes a while for your body to adjust, that we should eat what is natural to our bodies. I also realize that each body is different and I cannot deduce if my body works well using only a few things as fuel. I'm sure there is some scientific evidence in there somewhere to refute my theory.

Reason #4: I wasn't sleeping. 
I don't know if this is related, but once I went off W30 and started listening to my body, I have been sleeping like a little swaddled infant.

Reason #5: I had to choose what was healthy. 
I have struggled a LOT with body weight, image and food in general. The first time I did Whole30, it freed me from a lot of the emotional feelings I still attached with food. When I remove those triggers, I realize that I am in a much better place while eating regardless of what it is. I have learned when my body is full, learned what my body reacts to positively and what it does not, and I also understand that for me, it isn't healthy to box myself into foods that don't work for me. I don't have a gluten intolerance, I don't have a sustainable-sourced dairy intolerance, and my body is in shape. It wasn't working and I'm okay with recognizing that.

Now. All of that aside...
I do feel great. I feel like I can make it through an hour of yoga. My body is getting stronger and I feel comfortable in my skin. I think that it is important to note what I've added into my diet to complement what I did with Whole30:

• more starchy veggies
• cheese (sourced locally, from WF)
• honey as a sweetener
• yogurt (greek)

The list is not long, and it doesn't seem crazy, but this is something that works for me. By adding a few things into my diet, I feel balance. I don't feel guilty about the foods I eat and I let myself indulge without guilt. To me, these are the important things in life. Not how many days I can go without a glass of wine, or how many people ate cheese and I didn't. 

Hats off to you, readers! Thanks for following me in this journey. It isn't over, but it is about to take a turn....

Stop Right Now.

Stop what you're doing right now and follow my directions. 

1. Go to the grocery store. 
2. Buy pork chops, apples and cranberries (raw. don't be lazy).
3. Make this.

HOLY COW WAS THIS DELICIOUS. 

Using a few simple ingredients, dinner was ready in 30 minutes. We had a movie date to get to, so this was the perfect quick and healthy dinner to get us ready to go! 

A few adaptations:

I used regular cranberries instead of dried. Tis' the season. It added this amazing flavor and I don't regret it! 

I bought my chops pre-cut. If you do this, which I recommend, DO NOT COOK AS LONG. Mine were a little overdone.

Directions, adapted from this amazing site!

Pork Loin Chops with Apples & Cranberries

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Prep time

10 mins

Cook time

25 mins

Total time

35 mins

Author: Helen - onsablehill.com

Recipe type: Entree

Serves: 4 servings

Ingredients

• 1-1/2 T. Coconut oil or ghee
• 1-1/2 - 2 lb. Boneless Pork Tenderloin, cut into ¾" slices
• ½ t. salt
• ¼ t. pepper
• 2 apples, peeled and sliced into ⅛" slices
• ⅓ c. dried (or raw, whole) cranberries
• ½ c. chicken broth
• 1 T. pure maple syrup or honey
• ½ t. cinnamon
• ¼ t. cloves

Instructions

1. In a measuring cup, mix broth, syrup and spices. Set aside.
2. In a large skillet, over medium high heat, melt the coconut oil.
3. When oil is hot, place sliced tenderloin "chops" into pan.
4. Brown for 5 minutes.
5. Flip and brown the other side for 5 minutes. Then remove from pan and place onto a plate. Set aside.
6. Turn heat to medium low and pour broth mixture into pan.
7. Place apple slices into pan and sprinkle dried cranberries on top of them.
8. Return chops to pan, placing them on top of the apples. Cover and simmer for 15 minutes.
9. Check that apples are soft and "floppy."
10. Remove pan from heat and serve by placing chops on top of apples and cranberries. Drizzle pan juice/sauce over chops.

Shopping Bill Fever

It's time for the best game in the world!

BEAT! THAT! PRICE!

Last week, we did a really awesome job coming in under budget because of my awesome finds but mostly because we didn't buy anything at Sprouts. The protein we eat is far too important to skimp on, and I refuse to buy it anywhere but Whole Foods. Why, do you ask? 

I refuse to buy meat product if I can smell it at the counter. 

Being a fisherman's daughter has taught me a few things, and one of which is this: if you can smell it, buy something that is a little bit fresher. With that being said, this also means I refuse to buy meat that has been frozen for long periods of time or that has been in the refrigerator section. I go strictly to the counter. I also really like the people that work behind the counter and often make friends this way. 

Before we move on, you need to know the price to beat! 

Last week's price: $148.49

The week before: $194.95

Remember, the goal is to do Whole30 as cheaply as possible (within reason, as I just stated my meat-snobbiness level).

First Stop: Sprouts

Total Cost: $54.50

This was actually my second stop. A new grocery store opened up across the street : a Natural Grocers. I stopped in to compare prices. Sorry, not interested in buying things that cost less AT WHOLE FOODS.  

As you can see, there was a  need for kitchen staples this week. 

1. Dijon Mustard and Coconut Oil
2. Onion, Garlic and Sweet Potatoes
3. 5 pounds carrots
4. 3 pounds brussels sprouts
5. 1.6 pounds mushrooms
6. 6 pounds apples
7. 4 bell peppers
8. Spinach
9. 1.7 pounds green beans
10. Plantain Chips (I like these for the crunch: they  make my heart happy!) 

Not bad for about 20 pounds of veggies! 

Next Stop: Whole Foods

Total Cost: $172.49 (yiiiiikes!) 

Woof. I about keeled over with pain at the register. I knew it would be expensive but I didn't know how much. The joy of coming in under $60 at Sprouts is that I'm getting better there, but to my previous statement of being meat-snobby, I just can't skimp here. With that, my game plan changes. I try to stick with cuts of meat that are on sale and can easily be made for two people + leftovers. 

I also bought some veggies here. When the weather changes, so does store inventory, and the inventory at Sprouts can be questionable. 

1. Kerrygold butter (I make my own ghee.) on sale!
2. Asparagus (2.2 lbs)
3. Bananas (3.12 lbs)
4. Red Grapes 
5. Cranberries
6. Lemons
7. Avocados

For the meats:

1. 18 eggs
2. Pork Sausage 2 lbs @ $5.99/lb
3. Pork Shoulder 4.7 lbs @ $3.99/lb
4. Beef Shoulder 2.58 lbs @ $4.49/lb
5. Beef Short Ribs 3.28 lbs @$6.99/lb
6. Diced Chicken 2 lbs @ $7.99/lb
7. Ground Beef 1.5 lbs @ $4.99/lb
8. Thick Cut Pork Chop 3.05 lbs @ $4.99/lb

I don't know what I was thinking. NINETEEN pounds of meat for two of us for the week. I will say, I went shopping on Saturday, so I had to plan for that dinner which equaled an extra meat. Other than that, we average 3 pounds a meat for a 24 hour period between four meals. I guess that makes sense. Whatever, all I know is that we look good, feel great and eat healthily sourced protein. With 24 items, we averaged $6.63/item. That's an odd I'll take. 

This Week's Total:$227

Much higher than last week's total of $148.

Stay tuned for next week's installment of Shopping Bill Sunday! 

A Note on Wellness....

Something I forgot, when embarking on my third Whole30, is that there are more components than just eating. Whole30 was actually built into what Dallas and Melissa Hartwig dubbed the "Whole9." The nine components of life that, when in harmony, make someone whole and happy. I like the style of the Hartwig's message, and after realizing that Whole30 has actually healed my emotional struggle with food, I knew that I had to delve deep into Whole9.

When I set out on this endeavor, I knew that Whole30 would work and I wanted to see some better results. I set goals:

1. Exercise at least 4x/week
2. No Snacks! 
3. No Cheats!
4. Whole30: Ballin' on a Budget Style.

I look at my goals now, as we are approaching the halfway point. I am really big on reflecting, and want to share this with you. Goals are really important. I don't think anything can happen without goalsetting. If we aren't always striving to be our best selves, then what is the point of being? 

I need to remember that I cannot just say, "oh yeah, I'm doing all those things!" I have to cross-check. Here come the Whole9 Principles, bolded where I am lacking:

1. Eat Good Food (check: Whole30)
2. Sleep Deeply
3. Move Your Body
4. Handle Your Stress
5. Connect With Others 
6. Get Outside
7. Be The Best You
8. Have Some Fun
9. Own Your Choices

Sleeping deeply is something I have struggled with for the last two years. It isn't something that comes easy to me anymore, and it is something I am oftentimes trying to overcompensate for. This has been remediated in nightguards, a root canal, and no caffeine after noon, but I'm still not perfect. Unfortunately, this is not due to anything inside my locus of control, so for now, I wait. 

 

Connecting with Others. I moved to OKC recently, and immediately started work. I pick my friends wisely; I don't like professional and personal lives getting intertwined too much, and I also don't like drama. I prefer to surround myself with people that are passionate, extroverted and well-traveled and read. Unfortunately, when my social life is lacking, so is that department of my life. I am working on this one; joining a yoga studio, branching out into the community, and these things take time. The first step is admitting, right?

In Oklahoma, getting outside isn't exactly the easiest thing to do, and sometimes, when you are outside, there isn't a whole lot TO do! The weather is about to turn, but this doesn't stop us from walking to our favorite Whole30-friendly breakfast place (probably not what the Hartwig's have in mind here) and oftentimes try to breathe that fresh questionable Oklahoma air. 

I realized this week, while pushing myself professionally (being the best me!) that when one ninth of my life is out of balance, the rest of my life becomes hectic and seems out of control. I didn't work out four times this week; if I work out tomorrow and Sunday I'll make it, but it hasn't happened organically. I am proud of the progress I am making, but I know that I can always improve. 

So, readers, my lesson today is this: It does not matter how much we push our bodies and minds. At the end of the day, we need to find that balance to be our best selves and live our best lives. 

For more info on Whole9, click here.

Tune in tomorrow for some food pics, What's In My Fridge, and some other exciting Whole30 things!